I've been getting too busy. Everyday I'm going out. With the same old people. Yes, life's interesting like this. But, there's a spot in my heart that's quite sad. There's a growing distance between me and my family, I feel it. I've never told my parents much, but it feels like it's getting worse. Sometimes, I'm just staying out late just so I don't have to go home.
Take this sinking ship and point it home; We've still got time (Glen Hansard and Markéta Irglová, Falling Slowly)
I just realised the reality of informing parents that I, their dear daughter, has failed Chem twice in a row. 43%. And that isn't a pretty picture. Its a son-of-a-bitch of a reality. It's always at this point of time wherein I panic, and regret not studying harder, though I can't quite change anything already. That panic should probably kick in 1 month before the exams where I actually can do something. Pity my reaction system is a tad delayed. And I don't seem to have conditioned to the idea of: Panic way before exam > Study > Do relatively ok > Happily ever after. It's probably also not good that I don't think critically enough. Observing and thinking should be natural. Just not coming to me. So there was a talk on how to write personal statements. So people get coached on how to write personal statements. Any random person's personal statement can be transformed from a bland boring one into a pretty, inspiring, lovely, memorable, unique one with ...
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