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I tried so hard and came so far; But in the end it doesn't even matter

Got through that pool of shittiness that was JC, thinking that things would be a whole lot better. Wrong has never been a more apt reply.

2011's not shaping up to be a very good year huh. Chinese New Year was horrid. Worse one I've had with all the shouting and fights. Then came all the self loathing for disappointing my dad. I remember results day. He didn't even ask me for my results. Doing UAS was just as hard. Picking apart the facade I've had on for years wasn't easy. & I thought maybe Uni would be easier. Well it's not happening yet. So mofo sick and tired of everything.

& tomorrow, I wear my smile to school again.

Will the time I spent teaching in West Spring this year, be the only time I'm smiling because I'm genuinely happy?

Other than the times I'm out with you guys la.

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