The stars died so that you could be here today

December was spent looking forward to this year end trip to Korea. I was excited to leave everything aside and close the year on a good note. Sometimes it's important to have a sweet ending. Ties up nicely to a sweet beginning.  There was time to spare after checking in, hence I persuaded-forced my dad to take a family photo in front of a Christmas tree haha. This photo is so blur and there are so many flaws but I cherish this because it's our first family photo in a decade, no joke. My dad kept grumbling and forbade me from Facebook-ing this... because... HE WORE HIS SHIRT THE WRONG WAY AROUND *shhh*. Now you know where I inherited my blur genes from.  Family. Tadah, my inflight entertainment. I loathe morning / afternoon flights because I can't get to sleep on the plane, unlike early morning or late night flights, where I basically sleep the entire journey. But, I was well prepared with my book and a couple of videos loaded into my phone.. but smart me ...

It should be simple really. Why is it becoming so difficult. Was webcasting and listened to my prof talk about how his FYP student felt that he wasted his four years in university. There's this looming sense that I would come to have this regret too. Another two years left. That's not much time for me to find the drive lost to me. Had a dream the other night. I've been having so many dreams. Most of them leave me with a sense of emptiness for these are things I hope for, but yet I know would never come true. There was one particularly painful one involving my parents. I dreamt of them talking, laughing, bantering. Painful for I've near forgotten what it was like to watch them do that. Maybe I've already forgotten, because those moments come by too infrequently. Painful for it seemed so real. Then reality creeps in when I wake. Painful for it's just a simple thing that should be taken for granted. What I'd give up for it. So that I wouldn't have to he...

I love lying on my bed watching the television, reading my book. I love watching the television with my mom, brothers and dad late into the night. The more I spend time on the internet, the more I lose out on these, and I don't want to be missing them anymore. O carefree times, where art thou. I desperately want to go on a holiday with the family. Nothing scares me more than realising that time is slipping away to go on a trip with my parents, to have that shared experience again. As we grow older we drift further apart. We holiday with friends, parents grow older and are stricken with ailments. There won't be many chances to enjoy travelling without much worries. Even a 3-day trip to Malaysia would be nice.

My father and brother are tooo cute. I might hate my dad for being a classic MCP, but really I won't want anybody else to be my dad

So CTs were a trainwreck. Nothing's new these days. Just glad it's over. Finally calling my grandma today made me a sad sad girl. I felt like such an inadequate person talking to her, listening to her about her life. I don't feel good about myself when I ask how much time I have spent with her, made the effort to call her when I'm rattling off on MSN with people I see everybody. Filial piety is so much more than just loving someone, but doing something for them. And it really scares me when she talks about death, that it seems like she lost a will for something. Becoming her listening ear for that short while even, I see so many underlying feelings in my family that I've never seen, never felt, never heard. Guess I'm just oblivious to everything sometimes huh. Makes me think, how people with the excess capacity can live so comfortably while others struggle with everyday minute tasks. It struck me so hard, my grandma's despondency mired in all her rantings at...

Thanks guys for the Valentine's gift :D Photo so cute. 12/02/10, RJ went to Palawan Beach Sentosa for Take 5. It was awesome fun attempting to kick the soccer ball and playing captain's ball with the class even though we got owned by the teachers. Sad that I missed MT '07s sandcastle building though, 'cos a certain someone didn't tell me they called while I was miserably embarrasing myself with soccer AND they didn't call back D: I think whatever reputation I have in RJ ish gone after soccer and Rodeo Bull. Forgot to tie my hair so I probably looked like some crazy woman. & I think my paint job on Elizabeth's nails were HORRIBLE :/ I'm SORRY ELIII. Will practice more Heh heh. Tonight's my mom's turn (((: But it doesn't really feel like Chinese New Year in RJ. No Chinese New Year songs, no decorations, no sea of red, no traditional chinese costumes, just games and more games, sun and more sun. Feels weird and I miss SCGS and DLSS for ...

MT '07 2010 Nice OG photo :D (Missing Florence & Adil though DD: ). I LIKE . Ok disregarding the fact that my OG-lings are awesomez, that the red shirts look bright and pretty, that we have a yummy brownie for the birthday girl, DON'T YOU THINK I LOOK LIKE I HAVE LEG MUSCLES HAHAHA. I officially need to exercise to get rid of my flabs. So this shall be a favourite photo until I am motivated to go running, which is God knows when :D . N.E mation prize presentation Lol. Poor 4 girls up on stage. Never seen people so unenthusiastic about cheering for their own CCA, school mates before. I don't really see the point in asking 30 people to go down as support if that 30 people are just going to sit in the Auditorium and stone or start programming on their laptop throughout the whole ceremony. & Spencer takes unbelievably long to eat his muffin. He took more than 30 minutes to finish the muffin with his dainty little bites. Kenneth Koh you need to LEARN . Then Tingfang won...