The stars died so that you could be here today

It's been a busy busy few weeks, and it'll be a very busy few more weeks. I wouldn't be in such a deep pit of stress now if not for my silly mistakes in my simulation project. What could have been done in 2 days ended up taking me 7 days due to my carelessness. Thankful for really concerned, nice and helpful coursemates who entertain my silly ramblings and endless questions of how-tos and i-don't-knows and then proceeding to offering me their solutions and helping me debug my circuits. I am really grateful and touched (': Even people whom I never really thought of as 'nice' have been going out of their way to help me. Blessed. Came across this on @tippytoess instagram: And it wets my eyes. To teach me a lesson and to keep me safe during a perilous time. That's exactly what you did. I'm sorry that the time couldn't be longer, but I take heart that my home is once again a home to me. Thank you for providing a home away from home when desp...

12/07/2013, Skinny Pizza for Elizabeth's birthday dinner. A last minute change of plans from Victor's Kitchen, which means I STILL HAVEN'T BEEN THERE. I've been having so many food cravings. Dim Sum, Italian food, truffle fries etc. Truffle fries. Especially truffle fries. Best food ever. I just love the petroleum smell. I'm weird.   Squid Ink Paella... was average. The squid was quite good though.   Squid Ink Pizza ! I like the flat pizza. It's not oily.    Retarded friends who can't stop feeding each other food. To be able to be as silly as you like around people and for them to still love you is to be fortunate. & a very happy birthday my dear friend. Here's to the remaining 2 years in Engineering school.  // Caramel chocolate cake from Rive Gauche. Do not fancy it.  我(曾）想對你說卻害怕都說錯. 如果有一天我回到從前, 回到最原始的我, 你是否會覺得我不錯?

To: Everybody who made my 20th beautiful I love all of you a lot. Life would not be the same without you people. Yours, Michelle the senior citizen club member.

This is what happens when you leave the Holga in bulb setting without realising it. Ghostly photos.  03/01/2012 See these trees standing tall in the sun, standing strong in the wind. Hi friends. Hi blurry friends. This happened so long ago, but I spent that day walking around town, doing nothing, feeling happy with you peeps. Taste of Thailand was yummy yummy too. Food that tastes good puts people in a good mood. Cheap good food!   31/05/2012 Take a walk down Orchard Central We walk we eat. & we stroll into Bras Basah MRT station 04/05/2012 East Coast Park!    Where the ship sailed in the ocean that stood it's ground. So many ah piaos. I'm so sorry. Bulb mode without tripod stand reduces people to look only half there. The other half wandering some other place. Haven't had such a fun cycling session in so long. Cycled slowly slowly. Everybody cycled slowly slowly with the two slow girls. Bre...

It's so enjoyable to listen to Chinese songs. The songs are so melodic, no vulgarities, no twisted lyrics, no gimmicks, as far as those that I listen to at least. They are so simple, so nostalgic that I feel at peace listening to them. Maybe it helps that there's still a deluge of love songs in the Chinese pop industry. Nice classic love songs, about lovers, about families, about friends. I miss that about English music. Love you Pei Shi for gifting me all those lovely Chinese songs ((: Although I know my Chinese sucks, and I probably can't grasp half of what they're saying.

Hee, ok so I think its quite lame. But since I already did it, here it is ((:. A few things you should know: It's probably not worth anything, but if, like u know, I get sued for some reason that I know and I will not be writing so that I don't get found, it's going to be worth alot. The opportunity cost of doing this is doing work you know ! Hah. So if I fail CTs... Heh. Joking. Don't go on a guilt trip. I swear my ears are going to bleed if I listen to Sam Tsui again. But the Lady Gaga clip was worth it ^^ I'm not sure how this blogger thing works though. Full screen may be blur ? D: Check out Lawis' present: (See the full size images k haha )

Life's pretty much been school homework tests homework school, and abit of Glee and Flashforward in between. It's quite sucky to follow a show for 18 episodes, then find out its going to be cancelled, with another 4 more episodes to wrap up the whole series and you know that they're never going to be able to resolve everything :S The last few weeks of term 2 has been tiring, and sometimes I don't know why either. It's not like I'm doing much. Must be all the bitching and gossiping I've been doing :/ Wonderrr when I became so irritated by every little small thing and not liking 50% of my class and alot other people. I used to be so much more 'I like everyone'. Oh wells, I shall come to accept the old bitchy cynical fat me. Then again, it's probably because of all the self-centered, selfish people in class, who drive me nuts everyday. Thank god for my friends then (: Harmoc concert last last week! Quite fun, barring the MRT screw ups, my lost jacke...

I just realised the reality of informing parents that I, their dear daughter, has failed Chem twice in a row. 43%. And that isn't a pretty picture. Its a son-of-a-bitch of a reality. It's always at this point of time wherein I panic, and regret not studying harder, though I can't quite change anything already. That panic should probably kick in 1 month before the exams where I actually can do something. Pity my reaction system is a tad delayed. And I don't seem to have conditioned to the idea of: Panic way before exam > Study > Do relatively ok > Happily ever after. It's probably also not good that I don't think critically enough. Observing and thinking should be natural. Just not coming to me. So there was a talk on how to write personal statements. So people get coached on how to write personal statements. Any random person's personal statement can be transformed from a bland boring one into a pretty, inspiring, lovely, memorable, unique one with ...

Having no idea why I'm so happy ((: I was bouncing all over my house and I think I'm smiling while typing at my laptop (((: I think, having slept almost 8 hours helped (sorry I was late tingtong macadangdang !! ). Watching Tim Urban stunning Kara with his perfect answer after she insulted his intelligence with all the snobbish air she has made me damn shuang. There should be a petition 'Kill Kara'. Hee Hee. So I wasted 8.50 on Clash of the Titans today. Just as well that we didn't watch it in 3d. Everything other than the battles was bad. Parts of it were old fashioned and tacky. What's up with Io gazing at Perseus longingly every single time she appears in the movie ?! Doesn't help that she's probably a few centuries older than him and their love was borne out of her watching him grow up. Incestous much. & Zeus brought her back to life over Perseus' adoptive family. REALLY? I'd guess two decades of bonding, of life on the seas, of love would...

"Your death's like the sun: You can't look straight at it for longer than a second or two. The looming-up momentarily annihilates everything else, then lets it all back in." - Glen Duncan, The Bloodstone Papers. It's terrible that I keep sleeping in the canteen every morning. But that extra 1 hour or so of sleep is very very satisfying, though it does rob me of the time to talk to friends or try to catch up on abit of tutorial or read my book. The early morning RJ canteen is pretty interesting though. There's a calm quietness about it amidst the bustle of the stallholders getting ready for the day. One or two Indian workers will play their music sometimes. And just watching sleepy bleary-eyed people walking through the canteen can fill up my time. Event of the day: Elizabeth, Tingfang and Michelle are walking up the stairs. Zewei is one flight of stairs below them. He calls Michelle. Three of them look down, laugh then runs off, because nobody wants to talk t...

I wish I could stay awake without the coffee. Feels good to be paying attention and actually thinking after a year of sleeping, doodling and stoning. Damn I need to sleep earlier. But I just wasted 2+ hours of my time watching American Idol and am wasting more time hereeee. D: But watching Alex Lambert is totally worth it. Sweetest boy ever. I CAN'T HELP BUT S M I L E E OH EM GEE HEEEE. (Photo Spam hahahah) WHEEE. I WANT HIM TO WIN RAWR. It's funny how, though I still like rock music, I'm a huger fan of slower, raspier, soulful-er stuff like Paolo Nutini, James Morrison, Mat Kearney & Alex Lambert :D. Maybe I'm getting OLD. Oh wells. I think it's something to do with my tendency to loop songs forever and ever. Avenged Sevenfold on loop for the whole day would just kill my ears. I need to write betterrrr. My GP essays stink. Even though I redid my essay, I still have weak arguments, lousy phrasing, disgusting words, incoherent expressions. Oh wells. Need. To. Re...

So Class Learning Journey yesterday. Doubt we learnt anything watching old women acting as students - according to Kenneth - though. Most of us anyways. Not much of a bonding session for the class either. But, 'twas fun taking lesbian shots in front of Valentine's Day displays with Elizabeth and Tingfang and getting laughed at by blading chubby ang mohs. My dad really intends for me to study engineering o0. Highly doubt I'm going to do it, but I'm not saying anything more than a 'maybe I will' now. Wait until my results come back, then I'll launch into a quarrel with him lalalala. Pointless to do it now anyways. Need to study firsttt. Amazing how I'm wasting my time away in front of the computer. And the only B I got during promos - for GP, probably is down the drain now, seeing how my essay got torn apart by Miss Tan ):

Jogged this afternoon with pathetic stamina. Super slow, super short distance, super tireeed. I'll die if my 2.4 is like that. Figured that I was dehydrated from drinking coffee the whole day ): I shall replace my one coffee in the morning with an apple ! And lots of water !! Ah wells. Will go jogging tomorrow. Hopefully it'll be better. But I still feel awesome after running (: Like AWAKE and not fat. HAHA. I think jogging is like a great caffeine substitute (: Feel super duper awake after a jog, after 2km on last friday's PE also feel damn awake, even without coffee. JOGGING FTW. Keeps you fit and awake HAH. I DON'T HAVE THE GP HOMEWORK I DID IN CLASS WITH YEN LIN ): I HOPE ITS WITH HER. OMG OMG OMG. I'M SUPPOSSED TO HAVE IT &*&^%$#$%^&*. WHY AM I SUCH A FAILURE?? Elizabeth is crazy . HAHA. Here is my dedication to you. She: SMS-es me about certain certain someone going on a date with some random boy. GOSSIP. SMS-es me about buying epilators on sale (:...

Thanks guys for the Valentine's gift :D Photo so cute. 12/02/10, RJ went to Palawan Beach Sentosa for Take 5. It was awesome fun attempting to kick the soccer ball and playing captain's ball with the class even though we got owned by the teachers. Sad that I missed MT '07s sandcastle building though, 'cos a certain someone didn't tell me they called while I was miserably embarrasing myself with soccer AND they didn't call back D: I think whatever reputation I have in RJ ish gone after soccer and Rodeo Bull. Forgot to tie my hair so I probably looked like some crazy woman. & I think my paint job on Elizabeth's nails were HORRIBLE :/ I'm SORRY ELIII. Will practice more Heh heh. Tonight's my mom's turn (((: But it doesn't really feel like Chinese New Year in RJ. No Chinese New Year songs, no decorations, no sea of red, no traditional chinese costumes, just games and more games, sun and more sun. Feels weird and I miss SCGS and DLSS for ...

MT '07 2010 Nice OG photo :D (Missing Florence & Adil though DD: ). I LIKE . Ok disregarding the fact that my OG-lings are awesomez, that the red shirts look bright and pretty, that we have a yummy brownie for the birthday girl, DON'T YOU THINK I LOOK LIKE I HAVE LEG MUSCLES HAHAHA. I officially need to exercise to get rid of my flabs. So this shall be a favourite photo until I am motivated to go running, which is God knows when :D . N.E mation prize presentation Lol. Poor 4 girls up on stage. Never seen people so unenthusiastic about cheering for their own CCA, school mates before. I don't really see the point in asking 30 people to go down as support if that 30 people are just going to sit in the Auditorium and stone or start programming on their laptop throughout the whole ceremony. & Spencer takes unbelievably long to eat his muffin. He took more than 30 minutes to finish the muffin with his dainty little bites. Kenneth Koh you need to LEARN . Then Tingfang won...

New blog, new URL. But, disgusting as always. Wonder why I'm writing my first post with SO MUCH ANGST . & I thought CCA would get much better with new people coming in. HOW WRONG WAS I. From my wonderful junior: "I watch porn and I'm being honest about it" "I've never handed in homework on time since Sec 3. But I made it here still, so oh wells" Epic fail . Nicole pointed out that I have too many black things. Black shoes, black backpack, black phone, black wallet, black laptop bag, black jacket. I welcome c o l o u r f u l donations.