你知道吗？我很累。
制止自己去想那让人苦恼的问题是很累的；试着去持续谈话也会令人烦累的；每天带着笑容面对世界也是多么累人的事；责问自己是否做错事，说错话又是另外个累死人的事情。
如果不想与我说话，那么就算了吧。
在傍晚里慢跑是唯一一个真正属于自己的时间，让自己能够沉思，打开心里的结。就是这个时候，才能使自己平静。
而平静是非常提神的境界。
Take this sinking ship and point it home; We've still got time (Glen Hansard and Markéta Irglová, Falling Slowly)
I just realised the reality of informing parents that I, their dear daughter, has failed Chem twice in a row. 43%. And that isn't a pretty picture. Its a son-of-a-bitch of a reality. It's always at this point of time wherein I panic, and regret not studying harder, though I can't quite change anything already. That panic should probably kick in 1 month before the exams where I actually can do something. Pity my reaction system is a tad delayed. And I don't seem to have conditioned to the idea of: Panic way before exam > Study > Do relatively ok > Happily ever after. It's probably also not good that I don't think critically enough. Observing and thinking should be natural. Just not coming to me. So there was a talk on how to write personal statements. So people get coached on how to write personal statements. Any random person's personal statement can be transformed from a bland boring one into a pretty, inspiring, lovely, memorable, unique one with ...
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