The stars died so that you could be here today

Friday night, and I finally have nothing on my to-do list screaming for my attention. I forgot how nice it is to be able to sleep for 9 hours and then napping for 2. Rest, where have you gone? And then the question begs, does nobody think I need rest? I can look like I have all the energy in the world, but the amount of things I have to do... isn't any less, and my bones are crumbling. If all you have to do is study, then don't complain.

That feeling of nostalgia gnawing at my heart is getting to me. Browsing through the old forums, listening to the classic songs, wishing I had time to re-watch my favourite shows is all I can do now. Waiting for the holidays ~
Really really miss reading The Pendragon Adventure. I grew up with the series. And I'll forever love it.

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