Hope; Dream; Live; Laugh; Love; Believe

Because more than being disappointed, I hate disappointing others
Because I'm sorry
Because everything is difficult and I am stupid
Because time has the uncanny capability of betraying people
Because ashes to ashes
Because dust to dust
Because when all is said
Words can carry meaning. Words can just be letters.
Who is to say what is what.

My one biggest insecurity. That things will change so quickly. And before you know it, we aren't talking. Because one wrong move, one wrong conversation, one wrong sentence can change everything, and it will, and I see it. I'm the worst kind of commitment phobe there is. Nothing is certain. That insecurity will eat me out from inside one day. I don't know what to do. And I'll always do the wrong thing. I'll always feel like shit for doing the wrong thing, saying the wrong things. And I'll forever be sorry for not being forthcoming. Sorry. That word I say too much.

Things happen all the time. Time. Wrong time. Maybe 10 years down the road I can say with certainty this was the wrong time for us.

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Old women acting as students

So Class Learning Journey yesterday. Doubt we learnt anything watching old women acting as students - according to Kenneth - though. Most of us anyways. Not much of a bonding session for the class either. But, 'twas fun taking lesbian shots in front of Valentine's Day displays with Elizabeth and Tingfang and getting laughed at by blading chubby ang mohs. My dad really intends for me to study engineering o0. Highly doubt I'm going to do it, but I'm not saying anything more than a 'maybe I will' now. Wait until my results come back, then I'll launch into a quarrel with him lalalala. Pointless to do it now anyways. Need to study firsttt. Amazing how I'm wasting my time away in front of the computer. And the only B I got during promos - for GP, probably is down the drain now, seeing how my essay got torn apart by Miss Tan ):

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I'm really beginning to get turned off by GP. There are so many parallels with Literature in the questions, the emphasis they place on inference, on tone and attitudes and literary devices, but there isn't any similarities when it comes down to answering the questions. It's almost like, they expect a standard answer, from a very non-standardised kind of questions, the kind of questions that ask how you feel, how you think, how you understand something. And I just don't think that a reasonable answer can be marked wrong, just because the setter wishes to emphasis on something else? It's ridiculous. Makes me miss the times in Lit, when we actually saw through a unique, different answer by using evidence to support it. Nothing was deemed as "No, you're wrong". I think the way GP is going, it's going to suck the brains out of us. They just don't want to accept our views. So, I wanted to do more photoshopping and go through some funky tutorial on fo...

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New blog, new URL. But, disgusting as always. Wonder why I'm writing my first post with SO MUCH ANGST . & I thought CCA would get much better with new people coming in. HOW WRONG WAS I. From my wonderful junior: "I watch porn and I'm being honest about it" "I've never handed in homework on time since Sec 3. But I made it here still, so oh wells" Epic fail . Nicole pointed out that I have too many black things. Black shoes, black backpack, black phone, black wallet, black laptop bag, black jacket. I welcome c o l o u r f u l donations.

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