The stars died so that you could be here today

I miss so many people, so many places, so much time gone past. There's so much sentimental longing some nights I would count the things I would willingly give up to have these things back. Sometime in 2007 when we were cherubic innocent souls whiling our time away in Secondary 3. Wish we all didn't grow up. Dear friend whom I love so dearly. We can talk for hours and hours and never get bored and do stupid things. STUPID things. 12th year of friendship, we somehow missed the decade annivesary oh wells. Let's wait for the 20th :D. (Didn't upload this on Facebook because the flash just.. ugh) SYLVIA. So so so sorry I had to fly your kite this week. Work is killing me. The crazy girl who always goes shopping and out to eat good food with me (More of my retarded face I'm sorry haha) Bimbo-lesbian forever! Haha, this is the one I never want to return to a year ago. Sad that you can no longer be lesbian with me, but so so happy for you that you're fore...

Deepfelt regrets

Because more than being disappointed, I hate disappointing others Because I'm sorry Because everything is difficult and I am stupid Because time has the uncanny capability of betraying people Because ashes to ashes Because dust to dust Because when all is said Words can carry meaning. Words can just be letters. Who is to say what is what. My one biggest insecurity. That things will change so quickly. And before you know it, we aren't talking. Because one wrong move, one wrong conversation, one wrong sentence can change everything, and it will, and I see it. I'm the worst kind of commitment phobe there is. Nothing is certain. That insecurity will eat me out from inside one day. I don't know what to do. And I'll always do the wrong thing. I'll always feel like shit for doing the wrong thing, saying the wrong things. And I'll forever be sorry for not being forthcoming. Sorry. That word I say too much. Things happen all the time. Time. Wrong time. Ma...

But, I know, that time will never come once more. Not again.

School, busy as a bee. Busy sleeping. I'm a pig. Every afternoon I nap for four hours. Is it any wonder that I can't sleep at night. Sacrificing work time for sleep :O Had an extremely difficult third week of school. Sick and upset. Sleep sleep sleep all the illness away haha. Record of not seeing a doctor for illnesses for 6 (?) years maintains :D Though I nearly broke it last Wednesday night. The nights (and partly the days too) were freezing, but I would wake heating up. A difference one week can make. January has been filled with ups and downs, events and work.  04/01/2013, Les Mis today. Watched it and decided my opinion of it doesn't change. Maybe it's set up too much like a musical. I just can't indulge in singing when speaking does the trick. First time to glass house (so mountain tortoise). Seafood platter is damn gooooood. RVR CNY decorations! The luminous lights look like they came straight out of a chinese horror movie. :/ ...