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The truth hurts

/start rant 


I don't usually tell people what I really feel. It just feels weird. Sometimes I feel like I have to be this perfect being there for everybody. Just devoid of feelings, rational, objective. Give you my opinion, my advice, end of story.

But I'm not. 



As a #Taurus In friendship, you're: loyal - you'll do almost anything for a friend.
I'll do just about anything. I'll readily drop anything just to be there. But at some points in life I just get tired of all these. Tired of just listening to everybody complain about every damn thing. And when I just really need to talk to about something I either draw a blank or get things turned into a joke. 


& you wonder why I don't ever talk about anything or tell you anything. 


Thanks for making me feel shiteous again. 
When my student can give me a better listening ear............


end rant/ 


New 2012 resolution: Stop having itchy fingers that reply to every damn thing. 

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