The stars died so that you could be here today

Just remembered I have exams next week. Hi Eli, this is specially for you. You can't keep blaming yourself. Just blame yourself once (if you really feel like it's your fault) and move on. But know that you didn't do anything wrong yeah!! Love, Michelle <3

Yawning in public is unglam.  I remember getting called out by the etiquette class teacher for yawning too publicly. Oh wells, but I'm kind of sleepy maxxed right now. Am in YIH yawning away happily.  Finally sort of done with my essay. I won't stop editing it until the deadline is up though. Insecure insecure insecure.  EE1001 profs, would you make it clear what you guys want?  Lenovo, why do you put your 'Function' key where the left 'Ctrl' key is. I'm having trouble getting used to it. Now I can't use the 'Ctrl' function without not looking at the keyboard. Either that, or I'll have to get used to using the right 'Ctrl' key. Do all moms love to take out everything and reorganise their daughter's things?? Math test on Wednesday   Tuesday (sian ttm I don't even know my schedule), and now I don't know where the fuck are all my things. Hate people touching my things.... -.- She never gets it.  & not nitpicking on...

101 things to follow when writing an essay  Can someone pretty please come up with that ? I've forgotten how to write an essay.  Wait, I was never good at it.  Topic sentence. Point. Elaboration. Explain. Link. All thrown out the window.  After completing 950 words I'm questioning if I even answered the question.  Essays. Not my cup of tea.  See mom, Reason #101 why I didn't even bother applying for Law. Ha. & to think in J1, GP was my strongest subject. CUI. 

MICHELLE IS WRITING AN ESSAY And she has written a grand total of 2 and a half sentences in the past hour. Congratulations. She needs all the luck in completing this 30% of her grade.  Seriously. What are the benefits and challenges associated with wireless in healthcare. Does this topic actually have an argument to it. It's begging me to state the benefits and challenges. I don't see no argument. According to Mervyn, it's Engineering's argument, not Arts argument. Gee gee. Clueless as to what the professors want. Oh wells. Elaine, Madhuri, Jian Le, Theodore, and to my Report group mates, quan kao ni men le. Am addicted to Tumblr whenever I write.  Bought a new computer yesterday. Booted it up today. What's the point of i7, 1Gb graphic RAM, when you can't even type. Lenovo ah lenovo WHY. Wasted my whole afternoon. Better not give me another defective one. My screwed up Acer also never had this problem. I've actually beared with this laggy laptop, rain and...

PISSED TTM. CANNOT FIND MY TAIWAN HOLGA PHOTOS. ROOM MACHIAM GARBAGE BIN.

I AM AWESOME Yea Michelle keep telling yourself that. Maybe one day it'll be true.  So proud of myself! Deactivate Twitter! But now that I can't stalk people's profiles... life has become meaningless. K I kid, though it is getting boring without the timeline. NOOO I. Will. Persevere. Woke up at 7am to go jogging this morning with Madhuri. We are awesomes. 10k run sooon hahaha. 10k-running-mugging-nuns ftw. Anybodeh want to join us????  I've a nagging suspicion that I need to dig my brain out. Blend it into mush. Wash it, filter it. Wash my skull out. Pour the filtered mush back into my skull before I get smarter.  I think I'll start it over; Where no one knows my name.  

I've noticed, there's an increase in smokers in Singapore.  Like what's up man. Everywhere I go I seem to be breathing in second hand smoke. I don't want to die of lung cancer when I don't even smoke yo. The smell isn't even nice. Choking on it everywhere. No, I don't discriminate against smokers. I don't even give them a 'WTF' look. But really,  1. Supper = sitting and breathing in smoke the whole time.  2. Walking along Orchard. Smoke. Smoke. Smoke. And more smoke.  Smoke keeps getting blown into my face. GO AWAY. Stop making my lungs black.  Loaded statements from everyone. Bee-Why-EE, BYE Twitter! Hi babes. Won't you guys go back to Taiwan with me? Life likea simpler then. Hi, Nano. Won't you return to two months ago with me? When I saw the people who gifted you to me everyday. Miss you guys much much. 

K WHATEVER Hi Elaine! Hi Madhuri! Stop stalking me & go do your work!

Exhaustion creeps in and out of bones silently; & disappointment lies in every turn.

pact of forgetting

She had not lost faith in finding Javier, even if, in her mind, the image of him was fading. She would wake up in the morning and search her imagination in vain for an image of his face, and sometimes there was nothing at all, hardly an outline. - The Return

-So happy- Exhausted. The exhaustion is killing me. Yesterday I said, if the muscle ache gets any worse I probably won't be able to climb out of bed. It's not just the ache from the muscles. Its my mind aching as well. I was so tired from teaching awhile back. But it's a different kind of tiredness. Being tired from doing something that made you happy (I'm guessing it's more the company than the actual teaching) completely differs from being exhausted because of various tiresome situations. I'm also very disgusted with my worsening mood swings. My family gets the brunt of it. I hardly show it when I'm out, but today during lab, I was feeling like a pile of dung. Worthless. Don't understand shit. Wishing I was somewhere else. Feeling really sorry for my lab partner, that he has to put up with me, and teach me everything. Sorry. Everything seems to crash down at the same time. Tutorials, Sit-in labs, Appointments, Essays due. Please don't scold ...

Lo que más me importa es vivir What matters to me most is to live. #nowreading: The Return

Sick & Tired of initiating conversations.

Extract files also extract so long. I need to do my CS tutorial dammit. Doing things at the last minute? What can go wrong will go wrong. I am going to waste time because I don't feel like doing my EE1001 essay. I'm so tired, all I want to do is to sleep now. Don't like to talk to people whom give me the feeling that they don't want to continue the conversation. My dad has mellowed over the years. I'm sorry but I've got to move on with my own life. I tear my heart open and sew myself shut. & the scars remind us that the past is real.