The stars died so that you could be here today

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FUCKING HORRIBLE ENGLISH When I was younger, my mind was made up that if my parents divorced, I would follow my mom. Now that I am older, I see so much my dad's been through, and all I want him to know is that no matter what happens I'm here for him. To me, my dad's like God. Nothing can be too difficult for him. Seeing him so affected by everything that's happened (vague but I can't describe anything either because there are so many legal implications) makes me really upset. There's nothing much I can do except be his listening ear now and then, be his errands boy, and support all his decisions. I think it's rather upsetting that my mom is being so unsupportive. I'm really tired going back and forth the hospital. Will things get better from now? ): We get older, we see more of the ugly realities of life. I used to think that this life is mine. I make my own decisions, and I would go to any lengths to get what I want, disregarding what others ...

20/01/2014 [20/365], Sardines in a train. 21/01/2014 [21/365], The long road ahead. 22/01/2014 [22/365],  Brain's all fuzzy from learning Cadence. 23/01/2014 [23/365],  Chinese New Year is made of nian gao-s. 24/01/2014 [24/365], These boots are made for walking. 25/01/2014 [25/365], Yusheng damage count #1. 26/01/2014 [26/365], The beginnings of feasting on CNY snacks. 27/01/2014 [27/365],  As long as it is bak chor mee, I am satisfied. // Guilty of being lazy. Today's photo is suppossed to be from my DSLR.. But I'm too lazy to do a transfer from the SD card.  28/01/2014 [28/365],  Comfort food in the form of soup while I try to program the microprocessor.  29/01/2014 [29/365],  After 8 hours in lab. Huat right? 30/01/2014 [30/365],  Racial Harmony. Malay neighbours cooked up a whole pot of Nasi Briyani and curry to add to our reunion dinner. 31/01/2014 [31/365],  I'm frie...

That afternoon, she walks into the house for the first time. It's dim. The ceiling light shone weakly. A thick curtain covered the window. "Good afternoon", they exchanged greetings. She saw a mahjong table in the center of the room. Books, papers, folders, a pencil case covered the green table. Instinctively, she walked over and took a seat beside her student. Question after question of mathematics filled the stale afternoon air. "Do you understand?" "Yes, I do", the student always replies, albeit with a blank expression. That blank expression that fills the face of the dazed, the uninterested, the blur. The mother puts on a surgical mask and gloves and begins wiping down the room. Every spot is kissed by the cloth gently. No area is missed. It's strange. A musky scent filled the house, the corners are dark, the walls black with years of neglect, the sofa peeling from mistreatment. Yet, the mother is prideful in her job that afternoon.

Soon we'll come to the end of life's journey and perhaps never meet anymore.    13/01/2014 [13/365],  0010100. Also, my favourite lecturer.  14/01/2013 [14/365] , Going back to old favourites.   15/01/2014 [15/365],  Clearing. // Also I need to be braver in taking photos of people.    16/01/2014 [16/365], It's become a habit to listen to music or watch a movie to sleep when I'm upset. 17/01/2014 [17/365], For I heard eggs are good for your hair.   18/01/2014 [18/365], Three girls squealed at how cute a quail egg was presented // Koh's Grill and Sushi Bar 19/01/2014 [19/365], The wait. I've been throwing a little temper tantrum at home aimed at my mom. The guilt's starting to surface, but it's currently World War M with my mom right now. In some moments the anger I have shocks me. I never realized I could be so petty. Tomorrow I'll be teaching tuition again for the first time in 2 years b...

First parts of Jeju I got to explore, near the Teddy Bear Museum. The temperature was around zero degrees, the wind was blowing at full strength and I was in a shirt, jeans, and a jacket. Damn near froze. Teeth were chattering, stomach went into involuntary cramping and legs couldn't stop shivering. I understand why dying from the cold is not a much better option than burning to death.  School Day Count: 3 Emotional State: Stress Work Load: Piling up It's only been three days of school, but it's the first three days like never before. Lecturers are diving into module content so quickly, I'm already drowning. There's no space for breathing in the technical depth modules. The pace feels like that of a technical breadth module in mid-semester.  A trend I've observed among the electrical engineering professors: They do not like to declare required laboratory sessions in their module information. I suspect it's to keep workload to a minimu...

December was spent looking forward to this year end trip to Korea. I was excited to leave everything aside and close the year on a good note. Sometimes it's important to have a sweet ending. Ties up nicely to a sweet beginning.  There was time to spare after checking in, hence I persuaded-forced my dad to take a family photo in front of a Christmas tree haha. This photo is so blur and there are so many flaws but I cherish this because it's our first family photo in a decade, no joke. My dad kept grumbling and forbade me from Facebook-ing this... because... HE WORE HIS SHIRT THE WRONG WAY AROUND *shhh*. Now you know where I inherited my blur genes from.  Family. Tadah, my inflight entertainment. I loathe morning / afternoon flights because I can't get to sleep on the plane, unlike early morning or late night flights, where I basically sleep the entire journey. But, I was well prepared with my book and a couple of videos loaded into my phone.. but smart me ...