The stars died so that you could be here today

I never said forever. I merely whispered happiness. I made no promises. Because promises are empty. Cravings cravings cravings // Have patience with all things, but first of all with yourself - Saint Francis de Sales I wish I could still call you a friend. And time makes it harder, I wish I could remember. My darling, who knew?

Life's good when you end up studying with your eyecandy HAHA. I guess I'm pretty contented with how life is right now, 无忧无虑. I get to drive to school, and skip the madness that is the rush hour. Which also means I get to wake up later and still have time for a morning jog. There's no worry how someone might be judging me, I don't have to give any fucks about anyone's life. If this is as far as what happiness is, I would run with it. You're disappearing, it's almost complete now, and it makes me a little bit sad, but that's alright, and I'm going to let it happen. There's mid terms tomorrow.. but I've given up studying. FTS.

Every time I catch myself feeling down again, I look at people and tell myself they've been through worse, and they're for the better because of it. So will I.

Crossroads. You meet at crossroads. If you're the lucky ones, you go on down the same road. Mostly, people choose to walk on their own paths, a new road, or one they came down from. Never to align paths again with that momentary rendezvous at the junction. Just like the one you drew. 每顆心上某一個地方 總有個記憶揮不散.  城裡的月光把夢照亮,  請溫暖他心房.  看透了人間聚散,  能不能多點快樂片段.  城裡的月光把夢照亮,  請守護它身旁.  若有一天能重逢 讓幸福撒滿整個夜晚. 

Currently: In school blogging this and utterly bored. Planned to stay in school and finish both reports, which I thought would take me a few more hours at the very least. Well, today turned out to be firstly, more productive, and secondly, I simply do not want to look at the first report anymore. 5% lab assignment on LTSPICE which ended up being 21 pages long. It requires a little bit more editting, but my mind says no more. I can't look at figures and excel and graphs anymore. Liberation. Realized I forgot to bring notes for the other modules, hence, a break it shall be. Velvia 100 // Slide film // Loving film a little too much these days, it's sucking my finances dry. Haven't had the time to play with it much since school reopened though.  Photos from Nicole's Diana (with her instant back). The most unassuming people ever. To Sauce after! Broke my no-drink-resolution. I was so looking forward to coming. But Asahi is no longer 5/bottle and the truffl...

Everything that kills me makes me feel alive // 2 years ago at the Nike 10KM Run. Truly everything that kills me makes me feel alive. Running kills my knees but it's when I run that I feel the most alive. Lately I've been clawing at old wounds again. Have you ever tried this: You're going about your day perfectly fine. Doing your usual routine, completing your daily tasks, smiling to yourself maybe. Take an afternoon nap because time is on your side for once. Wake up feeling recharged, put on your running shoes and you leave for an evening run. A mundane day. Then, the memories and feelings start creeping in with no warning; no looming signs of its approach. It hits you silently. Just as a bus runs over you, except the engine is silent, the headlights are off, the wheels make no screech. All you want is to run harder and faster, but all that happens are the tears that won't stop, then all you are is a sobbing pile of mess amongst the people pounding the track. Y...

Today I learnt something: Broken bones don't fuse back. The gap never closes. It merely gets filled with calcium. As much as the body can fill it up. Sometimes the gap never gets filled entirely. Other times the calcium simply doesn't conform to the shape of the hole. The bone is changed forever. It'll never be the same. It's the same with hearts.  Change is irrevocable.