The stars died so that you could be here today

Lost sight of who I am.

It was all just one great big mistake from the start wasn't it? One big fat joke. Life, a great mistake, a great joke. We live through it.

Prologue, A Storm of Swords: Steel & Snow Many new Brothers of the Watch, names of which I don't remember. Chett seems like a new prominent character, though characters introduced in the prologue sometimes don't get carried through the whole book. Similar to Theon Greyjoy, Chett is just hateable, picking on Sam, plotting to kill the Brothers, his spitefulness, his disdain. But his backstory gives him dimension. Abused by his dad, shunned by his fellow villagers. Mayhaps makes me sympathise with him wanting Craster's Keep, to have a wife, by love or by force, after killing one for laughing in his for his boils. Small Paul - a new Hodor? Sam Tarly aka Ser Piggy. I can't stand him. I'm sorry. Classic craven. Whining from shooting a bow and arrow. And so we finally see it snow and a sign of the Others coming. Excited 'till I pee my pants too. Next chapter, JAMIE. JAMIE LANNISTER. OH GOD I MISS YOU SO. Picturing Nikolaj Coster-Waldau while I read him ma...

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To: Everybody who made my 20th beautiful I love all of you a lot. Life would not be the same without you people. Yours, Michelle the senior citizen club member.

This is what happens when you leave the Holga in bulb setting without realising it. Ghostly photos.  03/01/2012 See these trees standing tall in the sun, standing strong in the wind. Hi friends. Hi blurry friends. This happened so long ago, but I spent that day walking around town, doing nothing, feeling happy with you peeps. Taste of Thailand was yummy yummy too. Food that tastes good puts people in a good mood. Cheap good food!   31/05/2012 Take a walk down Orchard Central We walk we eat. & we stroll into Bras Basah MRT station 04/05/2012 East Coast Park!    Where the ship sailed in the ocean that stood it's ground. So many ah piaos. I'm so sorry. Bulb mode without tripod stand reduces people to look only half there. The other half wandering some other place. Haven't had such a fun cycling session in so long. Cycled slowly slowly. Everybody cycled slowly slowly with the two slow girls. Bre...

It's like we're chasing all those stars; Who's driving shiny big black cars One Republic, Secrets On this day, when I turn 20 (gag. Old. Maid. Old Maid.), I think of the dreams I had, I have, I will have. Imagine myself accomplishing those I can, reflect on those I gave up on. Can't help being depressed the whole day thinking of the dreams my mom and dad had when they were 20. The ones they could never complete. Did they really see themselves here twenty years ago? How many of those did they give up on because of the times they were born in? What happened to the ones that drifted away when they started our family?

Happiness is truly a state of the mind. We choose it for ourselves. Sadness, despair, unhappiness, all these will never go away if we refuse all possibilities other than the one we have decided is the best. But we never know what is the best. Who can say that he can predict every outcome from every possibility. No one can. Let go of our preconceptions and embrace the could be-s, accept the viewpoints of others, relish all the excitement of unknown. Only then will we find the beauty in life. Life never happens as we expect it to. There's always a silver lining to the twists and turns it throws at us. We stood , s teady as the stars in the woods, s o happy-hearted ; And the warmth rang true inside these bones . A s the old pine fell we sang , j ust to bless the morning. Careless and young, free as the birds that fly with weightless souls now. - Ben Howard, Old Pine

"Once,” the old man said. “Once. So you see, Jon, I do know … and knowing, I will not tell you stay or go. You must make that choice yourself, and live with it all the rest of your days. As I have.” His voice fell to a whisper. “As I have …" - George R.R. Martin, A Game of Thrones

Oft late, I've been confused and conflicted. Blind and bumbling as I may be, I will find my way out, groping if it comes to that. Dark wings, dark words - George R.R. Martin, A Game of Thrones

Watched The Avengers. Not your run-of-the-mill action flick. Fun film that I'd watch again. And I just found out there was a second credits scene. The hell. Missed it... D: That being said, Cobie Smulders shouldn't return for another Avengers film. She's just not cool . Scarlett Johansson looks like a secret agent. Jeremy Renner looks like a marksman. Cobie Smulders? She looks like Robin Sherbatsky, newscaster. What's the point of going on a trip when everybody's so fucking unhappy about everything? And now suddenly it's my job to make it right. Right. I don't dig this gig. So tired from reading Mornings in Jenin. Finished it in two days. It's a great book, though I can't help but feel that it's entirely biased against Israel. Tragedy, saga, drama, heartbreaking. But I don't think I fully comprehend the novel. I loathe it when I get to the draggy narrative parts of novels and in my impatience I just gloss over words. Got to slow my eyes ...

What happens in every lab. I've had a prof who came over and start pressing all the wires in and declare she can't find anything wrong with the circuit. Sometimes, I'm not sure what I want. It's just that, I feel so worthless when people suddenly stop replying. Being left hanging and strung out to dry kind of sucks you know? Didn't realise it's been a month. Dammit rain. Now that I can finally start on trying to lose some weight you won't stop pouring? How do I go running with such weather???   Omg Jaqen H'ghar (Tom Wlaschiha) why you so hot Game of Thrones my latest addiction. Intense plotting, conniving and scheming every episode. There probably should be less gratuitous nudity though. Fast forward. Going to get my hands on the books.