The stars died so that you could be here today

Just finished watching this documentary. Reduced me to a pile of tears and a bundle of hatred for the soulless 'social workers'. I don't think I will ever understand how humans can be so callous. How could you see a child in pain, in complete need of care, of love and yet treat him/her as cattle, and walk away after manhandling them. It is not the lack of stimulation. It is the lack of love that has left the children in this state of despair. Didi still has so much hope to one day see her mom and love for someone who abandoned and condemned her to a life of misery. She says she's happy but always, the lingering shot shows that sadness in her eyes. She knows, her mom isn't coming back for her. But if one day her mom came, she would jump straight back into her arms. That's the problem with hope isn't it, that's the problem with humans. We want what hurts us. Hope is what kills us in the end.  Milen, the boy that never let his heart harden through all...

It's been a busy busy few weeks, and it'll be a very busy few more weeks. I wouldn't be in such a deep pit of stress now if not for my silly mistakes in my simulation project. What could have been done in 2 days ended up taking me 7 days due to my carelessness. Thankful for really concerned, nice and helpful coursemates who entertain my silly ramblings and endless questions of how-tos and i-don't-knows and then proceeding to offering me their solutions and helping me debug my circuits. I am really grateful and touched (': Even people whom I never really thought of as 'nice' have been going out of their way to help me. Blessed. Came across this on @tippytoess instagram: And it wets my eyes. To teach me a lesson and to keep me safe during a perilous time. That's exactly what you did. I'm sorry that the time couldn't be longer, but I take heart that my home is once again a home to me. Thank you for providing a home away from home when desp...

What is happiness? Try. And try again. And again and again. But I'm really tired of trying. Every morning I repeat to myself why I'm happy, why I should be happy, convincing myself I have moved so far ahead from all the bad days. Yet, happiness needs no reasons. // Bumped that my mom is going snooping around my stuff again. // Even more bumped that I didn't throw that photo away.

I never said forever. I merely whispered happiness. I made no promises. Because promises are empty. Cravings cravings cravings // Have patience with all things, but first of all with yourself - Saint Francis de Sales I wish I could still call you a friend. And time makes it harder, I wish I could remember. My darling, who knew?

Life's good when you end up studying with your eyecandy HAHA. I guess I'm pretty contented with how life is right now, 无忧无虑. I get to drive to school, and skip the madness that is the rush hour. Which also means I get to wake up later and still have time for a morning jog. There's no worry how someone might be judging me, I don't have to give any fucks about anyone's life. If this is as far as what happiness is, I would run with it. You're disappearing, it's almost complete now, and it makes me a little bit sad, but that's alright, and I'm going to let it happen. There's mid terms tomorrow.. but I've given up studying. FTS.

Every time I catch myself feeling down again, I look at people and tell myself they've been through worse, and they're for the better because of it. So will I.

Crossroads. You meet at crossroads. If you're the lucky ones, you go on down the same road. Mostly, people choose to walk on their own paths, a new road, or one they came down from. Never to align paths again with that momentary rendezvous at the junction. Just like the one you drew. 每顆心上某一個地方 總有個記憶揮不散.  城裡的月光把夢照亮,  請溫暖他心房.  看透了人間聚散,  能不能多點快樂片段.  城裡的月光把夢照亮,  請守護它身旁.  若有一天能重逢 讓幸福撒滿整個夜晚.