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FUCKING HORRIBLE ENGLISH

When I was younger, my mind was made up that if my parents divorced, I would follow my mom.
Now that I am older, I see so much my dad's been through, and all I want him to know is that no matter what happens I'm here for him.

To me, my dad's like God. Nothing can be too difficult for him. Seeing him so affected by everything that's happened (vague but I can't describe anything either because there are so many legal implications) makes me really upset. There's nothing much I can do except be his listening ear now and then, be his errands boy, and support all his decisions. I think it's rather upsetting that my mom is being so unsupportive.

I'm really tired going back and forth the hospital.
Will things get better from now? ):

We get older, we see more of the ugly realities of life. I used to think that this life is mine. I make my own decisions, and I would go to any lengths to get what I want, disregarding what others though. But now, I realized how wrong I was. I would give anything up for my family. Maybe, in a way, that's what I want.

我不要求太多, 只要求大家开开心心. 只要能这样, 我什么都能放弃.



Comments

C.S.Ang said…
The more we go through in Life, the more mature we become. It's not easy being you I know, caught in between, and being the eldest. 我也和你有一样的想法,只希望大家快乐。We do not have a perfect life, but we must make the best out of what we have. It is up to us to be strong for the people we love. Jiayou Michelle, for I'll be rooting for you and the happiness of your family. Don't mind me for saying too much, it's just that I see a part of me in you, but I believe you're stronger. :)
P.S. Though I may not know you very well, but I must say that you're more mature than most people your age.
louis said…
Everybody change with time. Even after marriage. As we grow older, our perspective changes with time. It's disheartening to see this, sometimes all we need is someone who can encourage and support us. Be strong in your resolution and have faith ! I wish the best for you ^^~

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