The stars died so that you could be here today

沒有不會淡的疤 沒有不會好的傷 沒有不會停下來的絕望 你在憂鬱什麼啊 時間從來不回答‬ 生命從來不喧嘩 就算只有片刻‭ ‬我也不害怕 是片刻組成永恆哪

Tuesday was the worse day in a long long long long long long time. Anything that could go wrong probably went wrong. Woke up late Bus came, realised I forgot my wallet Reached class super super late Unexpected visit from my aunt Stomach cramp Cui Econs marks See things I don't want to see SCREWED UP LAB LIKEA BOSS. Really. Screwed. Up. I don't know what happened. Nice lab TAs just made me feel even more crappy. Good luck wish from my lab TA, and a nice reassuring smile from a tutor. What's more, I've only went for his tutorial once + one consultation. Sometimes a smile does wonders. Reassures. Then again, all these nice TAs just made me feel even more effed up. That feeling you get when you know you've disappointed yourself and everybody else. Time to game on. FAVOURITE SKINNIES ZIP RIPPED. Omg I'm such a fat ass.   Oh, and I almost forgot. Fell face first, flat in the middle of central forum's flea market. Knocked over a mannequin and a bowl of j

WHY IS LIFE DOING THIS TO ME???? Tuesday: Lab Test Thursday: German Oral + German Assignment Next Monday: Position Paper due Next Tuesday: Final Report draft due 9th April: Oral Defense Read up on 1003 and get a logic out. Sad girl 92 is sad. Sad. Dismayed. Confused. Anything, you name it. I wish I was as confident as I make myself out to be. Think I'm liking going places myself more and more.

It's painful. At least I'm getting used to it. I feel like a bitch for having these thoughts. Bitch I will be, for I'm exhausted putting the whole world before myself. If you don't cherish this then so be it. Cried my eyes out the day before 1003 over this whole shit. Worth it? no.   Lab on Tuesday was bittersweet. Happy me is happy. Came up with the logic for solving the question! Felt good being able to explain what the circuit was about to my dad. Sad me is sad that I forgot to power up one side of the breadboard, finishing everything 5 minutes after 5, and my lab TA zao-ed on the dot at 5. Life is pretty fine as it is now. Little creepy girl with her little creepy face, saying funny things that you have never heard. Do you know what it's all about? Are you brave enough to figure out? Know that you could set your world on fire, if you are strong enough to leave your doubts. She has a little gift, an amazing thing. She will go and set the world on fi

Nothing ever really gets me down, other than when I feel that I am not wanted. One of the saddest moments is when someone isn't happy to see you. Body language tells a whole story on it's own. How pathetic is it that someone you barely know can raise a bigger smile. I hate life in university sometimes. None of the lecturers, professors, doctors, tutors, teaching assistants really care if you do well. Their job is to come to lesson, dictate the information word by word. If you are smart enough to question what you're learning, what you're doing then good for you. If you aren't, then try your best to tread water and not drown in the ocean. For the next 4 years. I don't understand how one can improve and learn from mistakes when tests don't even come back, not even results. Are we supposed to just bumble our way around? How am I supposed to know if I'm doing things right or wrong. Throwing people into tests without any practices just doesn't make an

Another busy bee week coming.  Busy bee weeks coming. 12 hours spent in lab in 5 days. #firsthome=house. #secondhome=school. #thirdhome=lab.

Spent 4 hours trying to fix my computer. Has been happily BSOD-ing away since afternoon and I just couldn't figure out what was wrong. System restore twice. Boot up in safe mode. Run virus scan. Still BSOD-ing. And I can never figure out how people can get information from the BSOD? Or take a screen shot of it. Seriously? It flashes and goes away. Finally figured out that it was Google Chrome giving me the problem. Computer retardedly crashing away whenever I started Chrome. Locale data files missing. Uninstall, reinstall and still crashing. Ohkay, bye Google Chrome, since I don't know how to fix you. Hi Safari. Nice group mates make EG1413 alot more bearable. Spamming is a form of cyberbullying. CGW BIG FAT CYBERBULLY.

Spending quality time with my breadboard at 3am in the morning ~ Loves. Not. Problem is that I'm poking myself with wires and pliers and giving myself wounds D: Worst thing is that.. I have no idea if it works. Can't find no battery in the house to provide me a ~10V source. Let's go sleep for 4 hours and attend another 3 hour lab session tomorrow. If you're considering EE, please factor in the 6 hour lab sessions weekly + time spent out of lab trying to get your circuit to work + lab reports + programming practice + Design report + final report etc etc etc etc etc etc etc. 我到底是谁，在你心中占有怎样的地位

Friday night, and I finally have nothing on my to-do list screaming for my attention. I forgot how nice it is to be able to sleep for 9 hours and then napping for 2. Rest, where have you gone? And then the question begs, does nobody think I need rest? I can look like I have all the energy in the world, but the amount of things I have to do... isn't any less, and my bones are crumbling. If all you have to do is study, then don't complain. That feeling of nostalgia gnawing at my heart is getting to me. Browsing through the old forums, listening to the classic songs, wishing I had time to re-watch my favourite shows is all I can do now. Waiting for the holidays ~ Really really miss reading The Pendragon Adventure. I grew up with the series. And I'll forever love it.

Just seems like suddenly I'm struggling with everything. You'll be fine Michelle. I know you will be.

Later: 2101 midterms. + Tuition. Saturday/Sunday: Finish 2020 and 1003 circuit + Tuition. Monday: Design Report for 1003 due. Tuesday: NOTHING HEE HEE. Wednesday: 1003 midterms. Thursday: Graded assignment for German due. Whatever happened to catching a breather after this week?