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Suddenly miss my grandma alot. It's been about two months since she passed away. I don't want to say that I regret taking her for granted. There's no space in life for regrets, but I do, I really do. How I wish I had taken more effort in the months leading up to those fateful events, to call her up more often, to drop by her house. It was always a case of there's always next week, next month, next year. Who would have thought that time would be so cruel and fleeting. And I, prone to my youthful tendencies of self-centredness, wanting only to enjoy life, to with friends, to neglect responsibilities. She died of a broken heart. I'll never forget the time she cried while on the phone with me. I was so so so worried. Life has been cruel to her. Through the wake I finally learnt the deep histories of the Gan (my grandfather) and Dai (my grandmother) families. My grandmother grew up a princess of a rich rich family, and never had to worry a day of her youth. She was edu
What is the life you (I) want? Forever I'll be torn between following my dreams and being the person my loved ones want me to be, so that they will be happy. Maybe that is a form of happiness too? But where is the meaning of life in that?

Run baby run

I feel the most alive after a good run. The last three months has really seen me becoming lazier and lazier, sleeping in and refusing to change out into running gear and go down for a run. I was really in tip top shape, running at least 5.5 clicks every day, 4 out of 7 days and the 5th day I would go out for an 8 click run. Lazing off has seen my stamina and determination disappear into thin air. It's true that running is a mental game. When you're out there running, how far, how fast and how hard you run not only depends on your stamina but how fiercely determined you are to complete a good run. Lose concentration and you'll just stop. Be 'in the zone' and running 10 kilometers can be a piece of cake. That fierce mental game, just hasn't been there recently. (Sadly, this has shown up everywhere including school as well. Oh wells, I have next year to buck the fuck up. ) Building up that mental game and stamina again after losing them is hard. But hey, I'
Happened to take note of the date today. 想問為什麼我不再是你的快樂, 可是為什麼卻苦笑說我都懂了.  我記得那年生日, 也記得那一首歌 記得那片星空, 最緊的右手, 最暖的胸口.  誰記得, 誰忘了. I'm really tempted to go for a pixie cut. Should I?

dayre.me/mmmchia

This space is so dead ): Haven't had the time to do proper updates and edit my photos.. For now it'll be Dayre for minute mundane things since I would like to keep Tumblr for fangirling haha. dayre.me/mmmchia ciaos.
FUCKING HORRIBLE ENGLISH When I was younger, my mind was made up that if my parents divorced, I would follow my mom. Now that I am older, I see so much my dad's been through, and all I want him to know is that no matter what happens I'm here for him. To me, my dad's like God. Nothing can be too difficult for him. Seeing him so affected by everything that's happened (vague but I can't describe anything either because there are so many legal implications) makes me really upset. There's nothing much I can do except be his listening ear now and then, be his errands boy, and support all his decisions. I think it's rather upsetting that my mom is being so unsupportive. I'm really tired going back and forth the hospital. Will things get better from now? ): We get older, we see more of the ugly realities of life. I used to think that this life is mine. I make my own decisions, and I would go to any lengths to get what I want, disregarding what others

Week #3 and Week #4

20/01/2014 [20/365], Sardines in a train. 21/01/2014 [21/365], The long road ahead. 22/01/2014 [22/365],  Brain's all fuzzy from learning Cadence. 23/01/2014 [23/365],  Chinese New Year is made of nian gao-s. 24/01/2014 [24/365], These boots are made for walking. 25/01/2014 [25/365], Yusheng damage count #1. 26/01/2014 [26/365], The beginnings of feasting on CNY snacks. 27/01/2014 [27/365],  As long as it is bak chor mee, I am satisfied. // Guilty of being lazy. Today's photo is suppossed to be from my DSLR.. But I'm too lazy to do a transfer from the SD card.  28/01/2014 [28/365],  Comfort food in the form of soup while I try to program the microprocessor.  29/01/2014 [29/365],  After 8 hours in lab. Huat right? 30/01/2014 [30/365],  Racial Harmony. Malay neighbours cooked up a whole pot of Nasi Briyani and curry to add to our reunion dinner. 31/01/2014 [31/365],  I'm friends with the monster that
That afternoon, she walks into the house for the first time. It's dim. The ceiling light shone weakly. A thick curtain covered the window. "Good afternoon", they exchanged greetings. She saw a mahjong table in the center of the room. Books, papers, folders, a pencil case covered the green table. Instinctively, she walked over and took a seat beside her student. Question after question of mathematics filled the stale afternoon air. "Do you understand?" "Yes, I do", the student always replies, albeit with a blank expression. That blank expression that fills the face of the dazed, the uninterested, the blur. The mother puts on a surgical mask and gloves and begins wiping down the room. Every spot is kissed by the cloth gently. No area is missed. It's strange. A musky scent filled the house, the corners are dark, the walls black with years of neglect, the sofa peeling from mistreatment. Yet, the mother is prideful in her job that afternoon.

Week #3

Soon we'll come to the end of life's journey and perhaps never meet anymore.    13/01/2014 [13/365],  0010100. Also, my favourite lecturer.  14/01/2013 [14/365] , Going back to old favourites.   15/01/2014 [15/365],  Clearing. // Also I need to be braver in taking photos of people.    16/01/2014 [16/365], It's become a habit to listen to music or watch a movie to sleep when I'm upset. 17/01/2014 [17/365], For I heard eggs are good for your hair.   18/01/2014 [18/365], Three girls squealed at how cute a quail egg was presented // Koh's Grill and Sushi Bar 19/01/2014 [19/365], The wait. I've been throwing a little temper tantrum at home aimed at my mom. The guilt's starting to surface, but it's currently World War M with my mom right now. In some moments the anger I have shocks me. I never realized I could be so petty. Tomorrow I'll be teaching tuition again for the first time in 2 years because my fin

Unstable

First parts of Jeju I got to explore, near the Teddy Bear Museum. The temperature was around zero degrees, the wind was blowing at full strength and I was in a shirt, jeans, and a jacket. Damn near froze. Teeth were chattering, stomach went into involuntary cramping and legs couldn't stop shivering. I understand why dying from the cold is not a much better option than burning to death.  School Day Count: 3 Emotional State: Stress Work Load: Piling up It's only been three days of school, but it's the first three days like never before. Lecturers are diving into module content so quickly, I'm already drowning. There's no space for breathing in the technical depth modules. The pace feels like that of a technical breadth module in mid-semester.  A trend I've observed among the electrical engineering professors: They do not like to declare required laboratory sessions in their module information. I suspect it's to keep workload to a minimu

18/12/2013, Leaving on a Jetplane to Korea

December was spent looking forward to this year end trip to Korea. I was excited to leave everything aside and close the year on a good note. Sometimes it's important to have a sweet ending. Ties up nicely to a sweet beginning.  There was time to spare after checking in, hence I persuaded-forced my dad to take a family photo in front of a Christmas tree haha. This photo is so blur and there are so many flaws but I cherish this because it's our first family photo in a decade, no joke. My dad kept grumbling and forbade me from Facebook-ing this... because... HE WORE HIS SHIRT THE WRONG WAY AROUND *shhh*. Now you know where I inherited my blur genes from.  Family. Tadah, my inflight entertainment. I loathe morning / afternoon flights because I can't get to sleep on the plane, unlike early morning or late night flights, where I basically sleep the entire journey. But, I was well prepared with my book and a couple of videos loaded into my phone.. but smart me
The week was spent feeling all PMS-Y and bloated. Hopefully the new week will be spent more wisely. Tomorrow's the start of a brand new semester. May I have all sorts of courage and swagz to deal with unwanted people. Ok, but in all seriousness, may my brain be a little more savvy when it comes to idea brainstorming. I think I should just let my 365 photos be of all formats, and do away with the black/white borders. // Still experimenting. 06/01/2014 [6/365], I'm over all the butterflies 07/01/2014 [7/365], Newfound love of soup wanton noodles. Remembered about taking a photo only after blazing through it. 08/01/2014 [8/365], Edit your life with clothes 09/01/2014 [9/365], Not sure if I should be glad or sad that I'm no longer them 10/01/2014 [10/365], Bloop bloop bloop 11/01/2014 [11/365], Pig innards will never fail to make my day. 12/01/2014 [12/365], Typical Sundays
It was a productive shopping trip with my mom today! 1 dress + 1 blouse + 1 romper-ish dress (I have no idea) + 1 cardigan = $77.90 OMG. Do you have any idea how happy I am?! And I got this all in Orchard! Buying cheap nice things makes me so happy :D. #auntymode First CNY loot that I really like :D. // Sidenote: I hate how Instasize compressed the image so much it's now pixelated ugh. But at the same time shopping makes me really upset. I have a really low metabolism rate, and coupled with my humongous appetite (I'm positive that I have a man's stomach), it's very hard to maintain a figure that can actually fit into clothes. What's even worse is that I'm currently at a size that's slightly too large for S / XS and too small for M. Impossible to find fitting clothes. Clothes shops should really carry more sleeved articles that are dressier looking. More specifically, sleeves that are larger. I naturally have larger arms, as compared to my legs / hi
2014. So much hope for the future.  I haven't been keeping to improving my running. The past two days has seen me reverting to a pig like state: eat, sleep, wake up, eat, sit around, eat, sleep. I can't seem to find motivation to move my lazy butt out of my bed in the morning. Running in the afternoon isn't a problem, but mornings seem to be the bane of my life. Somehow, I'm going to need to adjust my body clock to a few months ago where I managed to sleep earlier and wake up earlier. Progressively sleeping earlier.. I think.  01/01/2013 [1/365], & so we bade farewell to a year fraught with tears.   02/01/2013 [2/365],  The kindergarten years.   03/01/2013 [3/365],  Chilli to burn your stomach. 04/01/2013 [4/365],  First book of 2013.  "This is for you," he said, holding one of the parts out to the monk. "It’s for your generosity to the pilgrims." "But this payment goes well beyond my generosity," t