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你往常的親切友善是我今生的遺憾

你知道吗?我很累。

制止自己去想那让人苦恼的问题是很累的;试着去持续谈话也会令人烦累的;每天带着笑容面对世界也是多么累人的事;责问自己是否做错事,说错话又是另外个累死人的事情。

如果不想与我说话,那么就算了吧。

在傍晚里慢跑是唯一一个真正属于自己的时间,让自己能够沉思,打开心里的结。就是这个时候,才能使自己平静。

而平静是非常提神的境界。

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