The stars died so that you could be here today

Everybody expects you to be: The perfect daughter. Perfect to your mom. Perfect to your dad. Sadly I'm neither.  The perfect friend.  The perfect student.  The perfect girl.  Everything, but yourself.  Knowing that you're forever going to be a disappointment. Just got to learn to live with it. 

If you think long and hard enough about something, you'll eventually come to a conclusion. A right conclusion hopefully. Certain scenes have been haunting my thoughts. Enough is enough. Though I guess, it's my fault for getting too attached. I remember what my friend told me. It may be an addiction. Don't let it be an addiction. Life's too short gotta live it long.  WILL YOU JUST GET YOUR FUCKING ASS OFFLINE. AARGHHH. I'M GOING TO BE DRIVEN NUTS SOON. WANG BA DAN. LALALALALALALALALALALALALA. 

HELLO WORLD. 潇洒比较好 Completely ignoring the fact that it's damn hard.

for ( int i = 1; i > 0; i++ ) {        Get close;        Pull myself away; } So so so so so so tired. I shouldn't get to know people. Really shouldn't.

/start rant  I don't usually tell people what I really feel. It just feels weird. Sometimes I feel like I have to be this perfect being there for everybody. Just devoid of feelings, rational, objective. Give you my opinion, my advice, end of story. But I'm not.  As a  # Taurus  In friendship, you're: loyal - you'll do almost anything for a friend. I'll do just about anything. I'll readily drop anything just to be there. But at some points in life I just get tired of all these. Tired of just listening to everybody complain about every damn thing. And when I just really need to talk to about something I either draw a blank or get things turned into a joke.  & you wonder why I don't ever talk about anything or tell you anything.  Thanks for making me feel shiteous again.  When my student can give me a better listening ear............ end rant/  New 2012 resolution: Stop having itchy fingers that reply to every damn thing....

And so the busiest week of the semester is gone. And I survived it! I really think I should start saying no to people. I'm not really that free. I just make time for everybody. Watched J. Edgar! It's not a movie. It's a history lesson. History lesson on America. Entertainment/comic relief came from the gay moments hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha. Sigh I shall get my Leonardo DiCaprio fix from the Titanic movie that's going to be released. I know I can't take one more step towards you; Cause all that's waiting is regret

Craziest week ever: Monday: Lab Test Tuesday: German test aka attempt at memorising 300 hundred words + their respective associated gender + their plural forms, to be tested on what 30? Still forgot some D:  Wednesday: Research proposal due Thursday: Graded Assignment for German due Friday: HEEE NOTHING (:  Saturday: Graded Critique aka 30% of EG1413 due.  I have no idea how I managed to survive and still get enough sleep. I'll know why when I get Cs for everything.  There's another whole wave of deadlines with 1003 lab. Gag me.